Where is the old me?

I have become more down and sian recently.. And i seriosly do not know why.. Things has been happening, people come and go in my life.. Working collegues, team mates, secondary school mates and poly mates.. So many people come and go in your life, some stay and some go, but whatever it is, you will never be able to take away the great memories that you have of each and every one..

I have not been going for training on a regular basis anymore.. I used to go every week, even though my batch has graduated, the guys in army, the females working or studying... Alot of my friends tell me, you graduate already, no need to go mah.. Yes, i know i graduate le, and i really do not need to go, but i enjoy that feeling when you train with your teammates, you push them on, they push you on, and we all feel super tired after the workouts.. That feeling is really shoik and indescribable.. It is really the one for all, all for one feel.. Coach will push all of us to our limits, and we would go all out..

I need to find back that NEED to go training.. I NEED it so badly.. I want to go training, my mind tells me to, but my body gives up on me.. This is the same for work...Working is much different though.. Alot of the old friends are gone le, left with alot of new people.. And those that i am close to already long gone, i am still working.. I still like the job that i am doing, but i have to admit, the people working with you makes a whole lot of difference..

I should stop wallowing and sink deeper into unhappiness.. I should be happy, CHEER UP SHERYL!! Compared to all those poor army men having training, you know you are much better off than them.. At least you got civilian life.. SMILE SHERYL!! This week is going to pass fast with training and work!! Like 2 days or working, 1 day of training, 1 day to meet Ian and Dylan and you are off to Genting!! Smiles!! =)